How do you become a positive person? Are people born this way? If not, how does one become positive and inspiring?
I used to think the positive “RA-RA”, was a bunch of “HOOP-LA”...And it wasn't until I was in the midst of my own possible tragedy, that I began to realize how the act of simply choosing to be positive and uplifting, even when all I really wanted to do was crawl under a rock—began transforming my life.
“Thriving with Neurofibromatosis” isn't an act that is easy to do. It seems like every time I get my head just above the water, something else knocks me back down. An endless whirlpool, of appointments, specialists, treatments, triumphs, let-downs and the used-to-much phrase “wait and watch”.
It's easy to be consumed. It's even easier to allow the negative to overpower you and just let it win. But what I have found with allowing that process to happen, is that negativity spreads like wild fire.
Bailey talking to friends on the phone -while waiting for the doctor
The last 2 days have been spent at the hospital with Bailey, trying to figure out her symptoms as well as the course of action, seeing that her year long chemotherapy treatment is coming to an end.
It's hard to be excited about this, seeing that the tumor being treated is no smaller--In fact it's larger, than when we began chemotherapy last year. But protocol -- And Bailey's body, is saying One year, is long enough.
Today we were told that next week, Bailey will have her port removed, and begin 8 months of oral chemotherapy. She was excited about this because of less "pokes" and less trips to the hospital. But MY first thoughts were less than joyful.
But as we continued our appointments today, I began to feel how lucky we are. While we may have not come very far in shrinking this darn tumor...We HAVE come far in our faith. We have learned that sometimes, you have to give up control...In order to GAIN control...And sometimes, letting go, can be the very best thing you can do.